Is it suicide if you are already dead?

I should blog. I have had a few medication changes and my mood is varying more. 

Right now? I give zero fucks. It is all the same, whine, whine, poor sad little me. 

God. I wish I was little, I have gained so much more weight because of Seroquel, yet I am back on it. Having tappered off of it over the last few weeks my mood plummeted. I was getting off work and going right home, sometimes go drink, always heading right for the couch.

Sigh. I want to be present, in the moment, alive. 

Is it suicide if your already dead inside?

Is it suicide if you are already dead?