I just weighed myself. I gained four pounds. I have been thinking my entire life.
A year ago, when I started facing my mental illness and taking all these fucking medications I began to rapidly gain weight, forty pounds in six months.
I’m eating less, monitoring calories and I still can’t lose. I lost ten pounds in the first few weeks of dieting, now it hasn’t changed
I fucking hate my fat fucking disgusting fucking body. I do not understand how people lack the willpower to stop fucking eating. I do not understand feeling comfortable in public being overweight. I rather not advertise that as an adult human I have less control over myself than a dog.
I fucking hate my fat fucking fucking body. I can’t believe I still am not losing this. Fuck. You fucking disgusting fat fuck. Fuck. I fucking hate you. Stop fucking eating. Jesus fucking Christ.
Fuck. Fuck. I fucking hate you. You should fucking blow your brains out if you can’t even lose a bit of weight. Jesus. Fuck. Die. Fuck.