Why do you hate yourself?

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Oh, I know why. There is always a why. It starts with one or two thoughts, and then you spiral. You think of more and more reasons you are a worthless piece of shit. Go.

  • Fat
  • Working a job beneath you, yet you stay
  • Lazy
  • Slow
  • A mess
  • Desperate
  • Stupid, go do something worthwhile
  • Under-educated
  • Depressed
  • Disappear tomorrow, no one would fucking care
  • Weak
  • Mentally ill, mentally fucking weak
  • Boring, get a fucking hobby
  • Socially awkward, find a friend
  • Self pietying
  • Pathetic, waste time on this blog you fuck
  • A failure, go get a real education or job
  • A quitter, I probably should even try
  • Scared
  • Crave fucking attention
  • Crazy
  • Whiny, I hate you
  • Fucked
  • Dependent on your meds
  • Poor, fuck you
  • Unhealthy, eat more shit you shit
  • Ugly, why? look above, christ
  • Forgettable, why would they invite you
  • Shitty
  • Friendless, and you deserve it
  • Unlovable
  • Effeminate
  • God damn drug addict
  • Med abuser
  • You use alcohol sometimes to escape your problems
  • Really weak
  • Alone
  • Gay, homo, fag, fairy, fatty
  • Die
  • Christ, fuck you

Current Medication: Nuvigil 250mg, Seroquel XR 200mg, Strattera 100mg, Pristiq 100mg, Memantine 10mg, Lamictal 200mg

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Why do you hate yourself?

6 thoughts on “Why do you hate yourself?

  1. Everyone has own reasons, but for reallymuch reasons are similar.
    I could use some from your list as well.
    The problem with your list is repeating some reasons few times, and treating your (temporary or not) feelings as reasons, while they seem to be results…
    Have mercy for yourself!

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    1. I agree, rational mind know I’d never be this harsh on others. However, my mind automatically responded to your comment: “You don’t need mercy, you need to be better. You would hate yourself if you were skinnier, smart and harder working.” Ha. Fighting back though, always fighting.

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  2. I can say your blog is not a waste of time. It helps others dealing with depression know they are not alone. We struggle together one day sometimes one minute at a time. I can relate to a lot of those things on your list. We are hardest on ourselves. Just remember you are not alone and YOU MATTER!

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