Missing Anxiety 

Blogging less lately, it means I’m doing alright. Most of my blogs are done to allow me to vent. There is no need to vent when I’m doing alright.

I think I’ve finally found a medication cocktail I can live with. I’ve been splitting up my 250mg Nuvigil, half of it when I wake up, a quarter four hours later and another quarter two hours after that. If I take the entire dose at once I’m overwhelmed with anxiety.

However, anxiety often still hits in the evening, I believe because of Nuvigil wearing off. I’ve been taking 50mg of Seroquel IR and definitely helps.

Taking Nuvigil like this means it doesn’t help me get things done, at least not like I had hoped. I have to fight tremendously hard to force me to read and respond to emails at work. However, I tried taking a half dose of Nuvigil, the day went horribly. I watched the click and counted the minutes until I could leave work. I felt like an observer of my day, not present, not a participant in it.

I’m frustrated, tomorrow I will take Nuvigil and hope I can squeeze enough work out that no one notices I’m barely hanging on. I fear I might be this unmotivated person I have been fighting every day.

Oh well, I guess feeling absent is better than anxiety. I think.

Current Medication: Nuvigil 250mg, Memantine 10mg, Lamictal 200mg, Pristiq 100mg, Trazadone 100mg (tappeing), Strattera 80mg, Seroquel XR 300

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Missing Anxiety 

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