Feeling Nothing. Absent. Empty.

Nothing. Absent. Empty.

Better than shit, I guess. Is nothing normal? Am I just craving an old Adderall high? More likely, do I still not function fully without a steady stream of stimulants? I want to want to do things. 

Shit. Nothing. I feel nothing. Nothing is shit. I feel like shit.

Current Medication: Nuvigil 250mg, Lamictal 200mg, Pristiq 100mg, Abilify 10mg, Trazadone 50mg, Strattera 80mg, Seroquel 150mg (new)

Feeling Nothing. Absent. Empty.

16 thoughts on “Feeling Nothing. Absent. Empty.

  1. “I want to want to do things.” Yep. I get that SO exquisitely…if you figure it out the secret answer to that one, you let me know. Thousands will be saved and you will make a pile of money. No good advice other than to keep hanging in there, no matter what.

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  2. Erica Marie says:

    wow! I can agree to the words written. Although I have never taken medication, i can definitely relater having many times than I can count, wanting to want to so something, as well as feeling numb…. I pray it get’s better for you.


  3. I’ve been there. I just cut my meds in half because I was so numb I could cry or laugh. Now I’m feeling some joy, actually even singing, but there are drawbacks. Now I’m irritated by abrupt noises, loud noises, more than one noise at a time. The people around me don’t understand. I’m torn between lowering my meds, living alone in a zen environment, or doubling up, becoming numb again so others can tolerate me. It’s so frustrating!

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