Held hostage

It has been a long day, Dan’s parents are in town, we spent the last thirteen hours out and about. We showed them where we live, went to a few tourist spots and had a couple good meals. 

I was worried about being locked in to a day of activities and socializing with no where for me to retreat to. It went great.

There were several times depressive and negative thoughts arose, but having an immediate distraction allowed me to force myself back into the present. 

I’m grateful for today. I got to largely live it in the moment. Eventually I will have to fix me, medications and counseling will never work entirely.

Today was a pleasant surprise. Social doesn’t always solve it, in fact, socializing can deepen a depressive episode. Being around people I enjoy and trust, it helps. I wish I could take them everywhere, I wish they’d always be there to help pull me out of my thoughts and into the present. Maybe with time and support, I’ll learn how on my own.

For now, I’m grateful to have today.

Current Medication: Nuvigil 250mg, Lamictal 200mg, Pristiq 100mg, Seroquel XR 50mg, Trazadone 50mg, Strattera 80mg

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Held hostage

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