At most they will be a nudge in the right direction. When Adderall was good it fixed everything. I felt great, had energy and enjoyed anything I set my mind to. I abused Adderall because of that. That was a high, and I was chasing it. Highs are never sustainable.
I’m still taking 20mg of Vyvanse, it definitely helps, but even that – my body has adjusted. It helps me get off my ass but doesn’t do anything for me, I have to do it in the end. Next week I’ll probably go up to 30mg, that will help more, but I think I get it now.
Vyvanse tappers off in the evening, I hate it. But I’m done drinking for a little while. I use a few beers to make the descent easier in the evening. I need to survive on own, in my own skin, beer isn’t sustainable either. I can’t start always using that to hide my emotions.
Thankfully the meds have balanced me out, no constant anxiety, panic, etc. I feel like my mood is lack there of, no mood. This is bearable. So I need to bear it until I am used to it. Until I start moving and doing on my own.
And now, back to sorting through laundry.
Current Medication: Vyvanse 20mg, Lamictal 200mg, Prozac 30mg, Seroquel XR 300mg, Strattera 80mg