doing bipolar alright… i think

8147b12690e1c7810ff70c088a315fcdI’m still here. I’ve been feeling a bit better over the past week. I tend to write more when struggling, when looking for answers, when in pain.

My psychiatrist added Prozac to my medication cocktail. It seems to be helping. Also, my work load is significantly less now. My industry is so tied in with education that we all get half-days for the next six-weeks. Lets be real, it is a big reason I took the job, haha. The lower stress levels at work also help significantly.

My complaint, low energy. I think what I feel is normal, or maybe as normal as bipolar me gets to feel. Concentrating and accomplishing tasks is still a struggle. Also, I am sleeping twelve to sixteen hours a day. Can’t I be better than normal? Can meds make me normal with a push towards happy?

Is everything fixed. No. Will it ever be? I doubt. But I am moving along, one sleepy step at a time.

Current Medication: Lamictal 200mg, Prozac 30mg (one week), Seroquel XR 300mg, Gabapentin 2400mg so far (prescribed dose is 1800mg, sigh, desperation), Strattera 80mg, Caffeine Pill 1000mgish

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doing bipolar alright… i think

18 thoughts on “doing bipolar alright… i think

  1. I understand about writing more when you’re struggling. I think I tend to do the same thing. I have found that I can either write my way through an issue and find a solution myself (eventually), or I ask others for their advice. Either way, writing can be very helpful. I hope you find the answers you’re looking for and feel better.

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  2. I’m just starting to follow along so I definitely need to catch up. But I’ve gone through so much of this as well. It’s very relatable. I think for me one of the things with bipolar is trying to be mindful. Before being diagnosed I would let things go too far and shrug it off. Now I register warning signs of mood shifts quickly and keep in check with my doctor. That helps!

    Anyway, I’m glad to have found your site to follow along. It’s nice to know I’m not alone when often times people like us feel isolated. Oh, and I’m on Seroquel too and some days sleep about 14 hours a day or more sometimes too! Lol

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    1. Shit. Not sleeping induces mania for you? I’ve heard others say that, I’m jealous. Maybe I should try that again. I’d love to get off my ass and do things

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      1. It’s so odd how we begin to miss the mania when it’s gone isn’t it? But yeah, I’ve been experiencing it again and not sleeping much. It’s been bad because I’m more irritable but at least I have some excitement back, as bad as that may be.

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        1. Yes! It’s weird how that works for people like us. The anxiety is something that has been crippling in the past. Definitely don’t want to go back down that road. But some energy and euphoria is definitely a positive!!

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  3. I hibernate, but i also hide away because Im embarrassed that I find it hard to function to perfection.

    My house is tiny with little to no storage, so it becomes over whelming very very quickly… sigh 😦

    I’m on 2400mg Gabapentin, but I’m naughty because I take all mine in one go at night.

    I find that way when I wake up in the morning Im more productive than I would otherwise be and I can have my afternoon nap without feeling too guilty 🙂

    But you sound like you’re on the right track! My sister (who was also bipolar) told me:

    “Just do 1% every day, then when you feel comfortable with that increase it to 2%.”

    I hope you feel closer to your goals soon xoxo

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  4. Wow that is a lot of meds. No wonder you feel so sleepy. I am also on a cocktail of meds for my mental illness. But I question if they really are working or not because I still get fearful and anxious when I do simple tasks like going to the grocery store, going to the department store or going to school. I try to practice pushing myself to do these things as much as possible so that I get used to them and don’t feel so scared when I have to go out. If you would follow me or check out my blog I would greatly appreciate it. Either way thank you for your inspirational writings. -bel

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