You won’t make it

Monday is therapy day. My session today involved a lot of crying, rough session. My therapist, who I love, ended the session with a notable statement.

“I’m not suppose to say this, but if you keep waiting on medication to fix this you aren’t gonna make it.”

Current Medication: Lamictal 200mg, Effexor XR 37.5mg (tapering), Seroquel XR 600mg, Gabapentin 2700mg so far (prescribed dose is 1200mg, sigh, desperation), Strattera 80mg, Caffeine Pill 1000mg maybe

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You won’t make it

15 thoughts on “You won’t make it

  1. Sounds like your therapist is being a bit of a bully. Yes, there are cognitive behavioural coping mechanisms you can learn to help manage your bipolar behaviour. And yes, you have to motivate and inspire yourself to keep going everyday (which you already do). But after years of experience with bipolar, my humble opinion is that the meds are the key ingredient. I would be pissed off and change therapists.

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  2. I think that was not an okay statement your therapist made. With that being said, medication doesn’t fix everything, it just makes the symptoms less than what they would be without medication. It will get better though!

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  3. Unfortunately i’ve never had much luck with medication. It’s never helped me much. That being said, while i agree that there are other actions that should to be implemented ( such as cognitive behavioural therapy) , i’m cringing at the poor choice of words your therapist has used here. ” not going to make it” should NEVER be said to a patient!!! Should’nt be part of their vocabulary when speaking with people they’re claiming to help. This therapist even said ” i’m not supposed to say this, ” so they absolutely should NOT have.

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  4. Nothing wrong with your Therapist relaying to you a observation which spots, defines a element, circular which leads nowhere. But yes, they have governing assessorial determinations. Notice the word ass in ass essorial. The mind however is the spark for recouping. For regeneration. One whisper is all it takes, then should the spark be lit; Look out adversity. One little spark, one little dream, who, or what can stand in the way of a growing dream. What can stand in the way of quiet tears of hope. What?

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  5. I can’t say whether or not it was the wisest thing to say on the part of your therapist. It is true however that medication is only part of the solution. I don’t know you personally, but I’m sure that you have weathered many storms in your life since you are here now and expressing in this forum what so many are afraid to share. Take that and build on it alongside your medication. Even then, bad days occur, a part of life. You still can come out on top. It’s not about a cure, it’s about surviving and to do that, we need to endure. I hope all continues to go well for you.

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  6. I’ve been bipolar for over a decade, I also thought meds were the only way to control it. Sure they help but they also can hurt a bit. I now take Lamictal, Abilify of which I will go into a depression without. I used to take Lithium & Xanax as well. I was on Xanax since 92, then about 6 or 7 months ago a friend of my daughters was over, he told me I didn’t need them. I thought BS. He told me ways to retrain the brain to think always positive no matter what. I thought about what he said and I slowly started doing that. It took awhile to learn to think completely different than I had for my entire life. It was hard. It took me 3 months to get myself off of xanax at 4 mg per day. I recommend that a doctor monitor for withdrawals but I was so confident by then that I just did it, about 7 months sooner than what the doc. told me. It’s wonderful to feel again. I never have a bad day, just some are better than others. I wish you all the luck in the world.

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  7. My heart is hurting for you. I understand why your therapist said that though. Albeit harsh, sometimes they have to jolt us out of our ruts to help us heal. I’ve had to be smacked upside the head a time or two – verbally- in order for me to see, really see what I needed to do.

    Medication is not the cure all, but it can help. The rest is up to us. My therapist had to flat out tell me I was “stuck” in my recovery in order for me to see that I was on “pissed off island” and I have to get into the “angry river”, even if I tip toed in, in order to move forward. Like my terms lol.

    Much love. You can do this.

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