Is this my fault? I think it is my fault.
I used Adderall for three and a half years. It made me focus, confident and invincible. I did and could do whatever I pleased.
Now? Nothing. Apathy. I’m writing this on my phone laying on my couch, were I spend the majority of my time.
I don’t want to do anything. Video games? Movie? Bath? Clean? Beer? Ehh.
My fear is that this isn’t apathy, this is normal, I just forgot how to do things. Two months have pasted since I stopped Adderall. Did I forgot what normal existence is?
I don’t know. I don’t even want to do things I know I enjoyed long before Adderall – computers, video games and going to coffee houses.
So my hope this isn’t normal. Strattera seems to help break through. I took one a few hours ago, it is how I am writing this. I feel 10% manic, I hope this is normal.
I want to do things.
Current Meds: Lamictal 200mg, Effexor XR 75mg, Seroquel XR 600mg, Gabapentin 300 – 600mg, Strattera 54mg, Caffeine Pill 400mg