I obsess over it, my mood. Constantly I check in my head, are you okay?
Medication gives me break, Seroquel does at times, especially as the XR builds up throughout the day. At those times the mood checks taper off.
That is freedom. That is healthy. That is my goal. Obsessing over my mood, fearing it, the anxiety cripples me.
Freedom is not stopping to contemplate my mood. Freedom is my mood responding to my day, not my day molding to my mood.