A few beers in and I am done.
I’m an asshole, but almost never do I enjoy someone’s company. People are so simplistic, dramatic and boring.
Really. I don’t give a fuck gossip, other people, whining. People are dull. Or maybe I am. I don’t know. And I am fully aware that much of this blog is me whining. Shit.
Yeah, I’m a dick. I’m smarter then these people, and it is obvious. Like, I know it, I don’t think they are, I know. And I mean it in an intellectual way, I am more capable then most people I meet. I am. And an odd thing about being intelligent, you can assess people’s intelligence with just a bit of conversation. I’m dyslexic, spelling and grammar, complete shit, but that doesn’t reflect my actual capabilities.
How you talk, what you say, what you are interested in and your opinions and what you base them on, all display your intellect. You can’t hide it.
God. I sound like an asshole. I am right though. And it makes me just feel more distant from others and the world. Alone. I guess.
Computers, computers are my friends. But I don’t even want to sit at computers since stopping Adderall. So maybe I don’t friends.
Maybe that is okay.
Better. Or worse. But I’m not worse. God.
God. I’m an asshole. But an honest asshole?
Current Meds: Lamictal 200mg, Effexor XR 75mg, Seroquel XR 300mg, Gabapentin 300 – 600mg, Caffeine Pill 400mg