I’m a dick bag

I’m out with coworkers, happy hour. 

A few beers in and I am done.

I’m an asshole, but almost never do I enjoy someone’s company. People are so simplistic, dramatic and boring.

Really. I don’t give a fuck gossip, other people, whining. People are dull. Or maybe I am. I don’t know. And I am fully aware that much of this blog is me whining. Shit.

Yeah, I’m a dick. I’m smarter then these people, and it is obvious. Like, I know it, I don’t think they are, I know. And I mean it in an intellectual way, I am more capable then most people I meet. I am. And an odd thing about being intelligent, you can assess people’s intelligence with just a bit of conversation. I’m dyslexic, spelling and grammar, complete shit, but that doesn’t reflect my actual capabilities.

How you talk, what you say, what you are interested in and your opinions and what you base them on, all display your intellect. You can’t hide it. 

God. I sound like an asshole. I am right though. And it makes me just feel more distant from others and the world. Alone. I guess. 

Computers, computers are my friends. But I don’t even want to sit at computers since stopping Adderall. So maybe I don’t friends. 

Maybe that is okay.

It isn’t.

Alone.

Better. Or worse. But I’m not worse. God. 

God. I’m an asshole. But an honest asshole?

Current Meds: Lamictal 200mg, Effexor XR 75mg, Seroquel XR 300mg, Gabapentin 300 – 600mg, Caffeine Pill 400mg

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I’m a dick bag

3 thoughts on “I’m a dick bag

  1. In my world, there’s two types of assholes. There is the person referred to as an asshole because that person tells the truth and makes others who don’t want to hear the truth, feel vulnerable because they can’t handle the truth.

    And then there is the asshole who’s in it for whatever they can take from other people. I would rank you as the truthful asshole. And there is no shame in telling the truth…. personally, I do it all the time. And there are many people that think I’m an asshole too

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    1. I just read this because I worried you’d call me a jerk and that would be triggering since I like you. Anything that might trigger I avoid, haha, kinda a whimp.

      Finally had the courage and the comment was fine. I appreciate it.

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      1. Oh you’re an absolute sweetheart! Nooooo, I would NEVER say anything hurtful to anyone within the community, or anyone in general really. I’m perfectly safe, I promise. I like you too, and would never say anything harmful ❤ ❤ ❤

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