A Constant State of Panic

I want to wake up with a desire to live. Seroquel XR gave me a few days of that before I had to cut my dose.

Each morning I wake wishing I hadn’t, wishing I didn’t have to face the constant state of mild panic I’ve come to know. 

It chips at my soul, slowly but surely it is eating me alive. I fear going to bed, because I never know who I will be in the morning.

As Seroquel builds up over the day the panic might disapate.

Fingers crossed.

A Constant State of Panic

6 thoughts on “A Constant State of Panic

  1. I so get this.

    So, I’m a Christian pastor. But I don’t ever want to project my beliefs onto someone else.I offer my prayers, but if that’s not cool I offer positive thoughts and encouragement. The meds game is no fun. I am on Lithium, Paxil, and they just put me on Welbutrin because of a terrible, awful, horrible, no good bad depression spell.

    I do hope you find some relief and a stasis that will allow you not to be in a constant state of tension. Blessings, Aaron

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  2. I hope the medication continues to help. After I had a nervous breakdown at the end of 2013 I was in a constant state of panic causing me to do crazy OCD checking rituals 10 hours a day till 5am in the morning. It wasn’t until I was put on the maximum dose of an anti-anxiety medication that the checking started to come down. The medication changed my life and I don’t think I would be in the state of happiness peace and sanity I am today without it.

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  3. I don’t always “like” or comment on your posts, but I do read each one and have been for a couple of months. I start to worry when I haven’t seen anything for a while. I just wanted to say that I’m thinking about you and hoping for the best for you. Sometimes it’s just good to know that there are people out there pulling for you. I can’t understand what you are personally going through, as I never have gone through it myself, but I do hope that you find your balance soon. One day at a time is sometimes all you can do, and that’s okay.

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