I’m aright. Still.
If what Lamictal is doing for me right now is “normal”, it is so unfair that others get to live like this. Everything is easier.
It has been far too long since my last good workout, told myself this morning I’d go to the gym tonight. However, tonight is here and I don’t feel like it. That is that. I might go after work tomorrow, I might not. But tonight’s decision is made and I’m not torturing myself over it. Not obsessing if that is the right choice, nor feeling guilty about my choice. Nope, I made a decision. Next.
Much of my energy is spent forcing myself to complete minor tasks. My entire life would be different if I didn’t exhaust myself fighting to merely live. I think the “normal” I feel with Lamictal might be actually how people usually experience emotions. They have no idea how hard some of us must fight. God. I’m so jealous of all the “normal” people.
Normal is better than drugs.